This was actually written in 2014, I found it in something I had saved, thought it was worth sharing.
What has brought me to this moment in time? I had begun to pray "Lord forgive me if I have not really seen You as my provider and my provision, my desire Lord is experience you as my provider and my provision." Three weeks later I find myself about to be homeless.
It is one thing to know that Jesus is enough, that Jesus is your Provider, your Provision, your protector and it is another to experience Him as these things. I had experienced Jesus as my Protector on many occasions and now I am about to experience Him as my Provider, my Provision, FOOTNOTE: "Jesus has been Provider and my Provision for years, but now I will get a real revelation of what that means". All of this is to increase my faith and to prepare me for the destiny He has planned for me.
The word tells us that we walk by faith and not by sight, do you believe that? I do, yet if I can see where I am going is it faith? When the priests carrying the Ark of the Covenant went to cross the Jordon River when did the river part, before or after they got wet? When Noah built the Ark, there was no water, never had rained, he had no idea what a flood was, but by faith he obeyed God and the Word that was spoken to him and he and his family were saved. The word tells us that without faith we cannot please God. So if I desire to please God I ask for my faith to be increased. Asking this will place you in positions that exercise your faith. In other words, your faith will be stretched, think of how you work out and stretch your muscles, to increase my faith it has to be worked and used in many different situations, situations that will require my faith to be activated.
So now I am being stretched, Jesus is showing me who He is and allowing me the privilege of experiencing Him. That as I don't waiver, don't give up though times may be hard I will see the reality of my faith. For I also know that the word says I am not abandoned nor forsaken, that I am loved and secure in Him, His word is real and His word is true. I am not a victim I am victorious.
So you don't get to feeling sorrow for me, until God opens a door of His choosing I will be staying at my daughters, I have said I don't know who I feel sorry for me or her, and then decided it would be her husband. (smiling)
God has His best for me and I will not settle for less out of desperation, and fear. My faith in who He is will encourage me and sustain me during this time. All of this has come about from a series of messages my church is doing entitled "From Death to Life". This upper part I wrote in 2014!
I am sitting here looking around at the boxes I have packed (to move) see my home is disarray and thinking Lord what is happening? I have moved many times, but each time I have had a place to move to, a home waiting on me to fix up, put my stuff where I want it, enjoy my new surroundings. Yet, this time it is different, I have no home to go to, no place to arrange my beloved stuff, no place that I can enjoy and know I am home.
Fast forward to 2018; I was told by my doctor if I wanted to live I must quit my extra job of cleaning homes. I am chuckling because I just thought of the movie The Terminator when I wrote this.
But I was beyond terrified by not having any control on my income. At that time my Social Security was $825.00 a month! Today 2020 the doctors are astounded that I am alive and the disease they thought would kill me is stable and not spreading, and God has been my Healer, my Provider, my Provision, every step of the way. Praise God for His faithfulness. He has stretched me, and my faith has grown, fear has no place in my life, Amen
Be blessed and remain steadfast
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